I find myself weeping this afternoon. Just sobbing. I ask out loud, "Why me?" as I'm sure anyone faced with the threat of deadly and/or life altering disease asks at some point. And then you just cry. You just cry.
Scott, Found your blog on inspire.com. Just want to wish you well for Wednesday's MRI...I like your writing style and find some comfort in your few posts, please keep writing. My husband was diagnosed with a Gleason 8 cancer on January 31st and I am doing as much education as I can. Someone wrote me that "Knowledge is Power" so try not to be too afraid...knowledge will help. Crossing my fingers that you are PCa free. Lisa
Thanks for the good wishes Lisa! You are my first commentator and it helps me to know that I've provided anyone comfort. I started this just as a way of journaling this experience and not having to repeat every detail of everything that was happening to each of my friends and family who are in the loop.Yesterday was a hard day in terms of emotions but I'm a bit better today. May I ask your husband's age?
So it's not a bad thing at all to cry, it is what one does when there is simply nothing else to do. Every single one of "us" has had a speed bump in life. Everyone and I everyone has traveled down a road similar. Some don't get the chance you now have and truly you are "lucky" to have at least some options. My dad had none--gone in a flash and forever.
Yes you are lucky...in some small way it is your turn to carry the torch of strength for the rest of us. We will all experience more of these painful "things"....perhaps your words and actions will inspire someone reading this and help them down the road.
Thanks my friend. Sometimes I'm strong; sometimes not so much. I know that I'll get to the other side of this and that, fortunately, if it is cancer, it is treatable. Now the treatments are a whole 'nother story......but one day at a time..........
Scott,
ReplyDeleteFound your blog on inspire.com. Just want to wish you well for Wednesday's MRI...I like your writing style and find some comfort in your few posts, please keep writing. My husband was diagnosed with a Gleason 8 cancer on January 31st and I am doing as much education as I can. Someone wrote me that "Knowledge is Power" so try not to be too afraid...knowledge will help. Crossing my fingers that you are PCa free. Lisa
Thanks for the good wishes Lisa! You are my first commentator and it helps me to know that I've provided anyone comfort. I started this just as a way of journaling this experience and not having to repeat every detail of everything that was happening to each of my friends and family who are in the loop.Yesterday was a hard day in terms of emotions but I'm a bit better today. May I ask your husband's age?
DeleteScott you know you are my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteSo it's not a bad thing at all to cry, it is what one does when there is simply nothing else to do. Every single one of "us" has had a speed bump in life. Everyone and I everyone has traveled down a road similar. Some don't get the chance you now have and truly you are "lucky" to have at least some options. My dad had none--gone in a flash and forever.
Yes you are lucky...in some small way it is your turn to carry the torch of strength for the rest of us. We will all experience more of these painful "things"....perhaps your words and actions will inspire someone reading this and help them down the road.
Sharing is good.....
Gary
Thanks my friend. Sometimes I'm strong; sometimes not so much. I know that I'll get to the other side of this and that, fortunately, if it is cancer, it is treatable. Now the treatments are a whole 'nother story......but one day at a time..........
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